Lets all forget what we have done and what we should have done.

For some reason I cry a lot. Not for any particular reason. The other day, I almost balled my eyes out while watching the new Harry Potter movie, and last night, I watched Bed Knobs and Broomsticks and started to tear up. Maybe the idea of magic makes me tear up. Reality seems to lack magic. I've been thinking about life a lot. I usually think about how I'm going to be a failure in the eyes of society. I probably will not have a high paying job, a nice car, a fancy house, or even two pairs of socks. I'll probably be homeless. For some reason I lack ambition. I lack a lot of things. Being homeless wouldn’t be so bad. I can see myself being homeless. I hardly care about what I look like, and sometimes I don’t shower. I don’t have to impress others. It’s my life right or is it god’s life? Do I have the right to do what I want with my life? No! If I did that, then maybe everyone would do that, and then society would crumble. I feel alone. Being alone can be frustrating. Love is fake. Love is just something humans made up to ignore the fact that in the end we are all alone. Distractions surround us. I feel comfortable being alone. I feel comfortable knowing I won’t disappoint anyone but myself. This bed I’m laying on is comfortable. Comfort is a big distraction. Things are constantly flowing through my head. I can’t concentrate. Why should I leave my comfort zone? Shit I can’t focus. My life is a mess. Comfort is overwhelming.

At noon today, Scott David Bennett walked off the White Lake Channel Peer into Lake Michigan’s dreadful cold water to end his life. Witnesses say as he walked towards the end of the peer he had a smile on his face. He jumped into the water and swam out to sea. After a few minutes of panicking, he spoke his last word and let his body relax and sink down into the freezing cold water. His body has yet to be found. Witnesses have said that the word they overheard him say while screaming was “Happiness.”